Joy doesn’t need to be smarter or sharper than what it opposes; it just offers incongruities a place in the human experience to come home to and recalibrate themselves.
Allow — in fact, indulge — joy as a practical means to declutter your perception of the options and loosen up your receptivity to new ways things can start going well.
Whatever loosens your grip on the struggle makes you more available to newness. And wiser decisions. And braver advances. The best is yet to be discovered! A resilient attitude will fund your highest passion and be of benefit on scales you cannot possibly chart.
Loosen up, sweetheart. It’s good to be in this conundrum turning out all right.