your brain’s not wired to contain infinity

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Souls are big. Quote from The LOOK of Amie Martine

You have a body. A life forms around it. Consciously or obliviously, you experience yourself in structures held in place by myths your active presence here creates.

In the context of a room, a neighborhood, a city block, the spinning planet, a galaxy uncharted: you seem quite small and inconsequential in your fleshy vehicle.

This is the deception you’ve agreed to — a willful forgetting keeps you safely tucked into a pocket of existence your brain can functionally fathom.

Souls are big.
What do you imagine when I say big?
A soul’s much more than that.

Poets speak of mansions; mystics speak of infinite space between the lines of a good poem. I’m saying: it’s not that, either. A soul can house a planet. And the giant star round which it orbits. The spiraling tendrils of our Milky Way, tacky with enormous stars and icy comets burning through: a single soul can hold that, too.

from The LOOK of Amie Martine

306 Pages | ISBN 1523664339 | Amazon

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this little giant of a soul

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death valley

a seven-part exercise in flash fiction

death valley: an exercise in flash fiction by Laurie Perez

Prelude

The hospital is empty in the corners, busy with people in the corridors. Bodies shuffling, shifting, scurrying and waiting like extras on a film set with no consistent director. Dennis wanders around alone, holding his camera heavy in both hands, aiming at objects and faces even when the film has all run out. It helps having the narrow transit between his eyes and the emptiness that visually echoes around him. Too many monochrome layers, too many soft-soled shoes, too many filters sucking the texture right out of the air, leaving nothing to lean into.

The walls slip around him, he spins on squeaky sneakers, panorams the hallway and knocks a nurse in the ass with his elbow. She doesn’t find it amusing. Humor can’t thrive here, though people keep faking it, trying to cheer up the white polyester truth of where they are, not buying into the joke. Flowers spill from open doorways, losing perfume in transit. Bodies come here to clean out disease, push out souls.

Bertie won’t sit down, won’t let go of Tom’s hand. He’s hooked to tubes and suckers and oxygenators. Nurses come in and out checking blood gases, pulses, monitors and dosages. They acknowledge her, touch her occasionally, ask if she wants a cup of coffee, a chair, a glass of water. She smiles at them. It’s the smile that amazes him most. Dennis lives inside that smile; he banks on its reality.

Tom makes no noise, though any person allowed in the room hears a constant ruckus: air pumping through the duct of his throat, inflating the chest beneath thin sheets. Ventilation fans, heart bleeps on small dark screens, P.A. calls overhead. Nothing human, all man-made.

Scorpio has gone to find a pay phone to call Vicki who waits impatiently for their return home. When Bertie’s smile fades, she turns her head back to stare at Tom’s controverted face. Den squeezes the camera without lifting it. He’s sitting in a chair against the wall, just under the clock. Bertie scares him when the smile’s gone so he thinks about his father and the phone call, how they always seem to be dropping coins for the operators across the nation. How far away home is becoming, year by year. How his mother is more of a voice, a concept, than an actual woman.

Tom is going to die. Bertie knows it. Dennis sees it. Scorpio denies it.

He comes back finally with two cups of hot coffee loaded with cream and sugar. Dennis takes one cup, feels old sipping it, burns his tongue.

His father’s boots jar the under-silence he and Bertie have been mingling in. Conversation swells but doesn’t quite happen.

Hospital rules say neither of them should be allowed inside, but no one cares to enforce it, considering the precariousness unfolding here. What’s one more broken rule? The world’s inside-out already. The clock over Den’s head reads 2:10 with the second hand whirling nonstop in its predictable circle. Typical of hospitals, the clock doesn’t provide any useful information. Is it night or day?

“Is it dark outside?” Dennis asks between sips of coffee.

Scorpio nods, reaches for a cigarette then remembers where he is. “Yeah. Still night. You tired, Den-bear?”

“Uh-uh. Just couldn’t tell.”

He won’t think about the strangeness of his father’s phone call, waking Vicki in these pre-dawn hours. He doesn’t think about the illusion Bertie emits of not being weary herself. All if it makes sense in an inexplicable way. That he’s in a hospital room with a comatose biker named Tom, sipping coffee like an adult, riding out the unpracticed ritual of good-bye-for-good.

Bertie shifts on her feet, changes the hand she’s using to hold onto Tom’s hollow fingers. She’s been standing like that since before they got here, rolling in around 10pm and storming the room in a panic. Neil’s at home with his sisters. The kid must be freaked out. If that were Daddio – well, of course you can’t think that way. The heart just doesn’t have the wiring for that kind of sanity.

“Your mom’s pissed at me, you know, for not getting you back home.”

“It’s ok.”

“Yeah, well, I’m not ready to leave yet.”

“Me, too.”

“We do ok, though, right?”

Dennis nods.

But he worries about Bertie. Both of them worry about her more than they worry about Tom. Scorpio asks her if she wants this or that. She just looks at him, blank, on pause. The thing she wants is rapidly becoming un-wantable. Den’s sorry his father asked.

He puts his coffee down on the night stand, stretches as he rises and walks to be next to her. Scorpio takes his place in the lonely chair, sighs a heavy man sigh. When Dennis stands close to her, Tom looks completely different than he looked from across the room. This is the closest he’s been to him all night.

From over there, he’s a person sleeping with attachments. In the light of this new proximity, he looks like bones draped in bleached leather, stained in random patterns, radiating left-over blood and fear. Cuts in his face and neck surreally stagnate on the surface of his skin, bandaged and stitched in some places, scabbing over in others. His eyes decline deep into his face and the lids are almost transparent, trying to keep them covered and private. This side of his head has been shaved and there are patches of white gauze stuck to the curve. Tubes flow out of him like an experiment, IV needles turn his arm veins into a complex root system draining the life out of his freckles, sucking the tattoos and body hair back into his body.

He looks like a diseased old man. Bertie stares into him like a lover.

Her feet shift every few seconds. Den imagines how tired they must be from holding her up. He notices a stack of clean linens on a table next to the door, leaves her side for a moment to grab two soft blankets.

Without saying a word, he nudges her legs and bends down until he’s eye-level with her dense ankles. Lifts the right leg and removes her shoe. Repeats the gesture with the left. Amazing how she lets him do this, not even glancing down to comment. Even Dennis knows how strange it is for him to move her like this, to act so parental despite his youth. But he moves directed by an intuitive understanding of what she needs.

When both shoes are off, he rests them under the bed. Now lifts the ankles again and smoothly slides the blankets under her feet. A manufactured cloud on cold tile. She smiles, tries to hold it long enough for Dennis to see.

“He’s afraid to go alone,” she says.

“You mean to die?”

“Oh yes. I think he doesn’t know how easy it will be.”

“Compared to this.”

“Compared to us.”

Bertie shifts hands again, holds Tom with her left and wraps her other around Den’s shoulders, pulling him close. He sinks into her body as if it, too, were a cloud. He feels her breathing, her pulse. Scorpio watches them from across the room, suffering the poignancy without speaking. When her voice opens again, Den feels the vibration in his own ribcage, all the way inside his heart.

“My Tom’s not my Tom. I want to help him, but there’s nothing I can say. I don’t know why this happens this way. Why it was today and not yesterday, not tomorrow. I don’t know why it happens, but I just wait. I wait for Tom to discover the place where his silence is good and easy. I wait. I just wait. But you must keep moving. You will learn. You will see.”

:: 1 ::

He’s stuck in one of those moments when young bones declare their stretching to the evolving mind. The camera in hand intensifies the silence in Den’s 13-yr-old thoughts. It’s a silence that makes his bones speak to fill the space around him.

He’s taller than his shadow now; at odd minutes he scrapes the fading sky with the round, upturned bowl of skull that holds his matter in. No way to catch those minutes, no way to stable the seconds. He is simply growing, but not simply. There is nothing simple about the way he’s aching and expanding. Scorpio may never know the kind of vitamins he’s feeding his son. Some of the vitamins will fester like mild toxins before they turn into nutrients. They’ll fester through years and years of wandering, the kind of wandering one does within the confines of his shadow.

Out in the desert things seem to melt, yet the air is so dry it stays their melting. It’s a perpetually oozing body that never flows out of itself. Den picks up the camera. The last frame has not been wound in yet so he cranks the lever. It’s a loud sound compared to so much silence. Scorpio stands away from the Harley, starts to walk in another direction with the sun behind him, catching on the heels of his boots. Dennis focuses carefully. Difficult to frame ghosts on spare earth, but he focuses; he guesses at the settings he needs. He feels with fingertips of soul to find the gages and subtle knobs. Not an exactness, but near.

He’ll learn these secrets later, but right now it’s good to make mistakes, to blur the intended sharpness. It’s merely good to aim and shoot, the arrows of truth flying quietly through his father’s leather jacket, straight through into the darkening East.

:: 2 ::

He stands with his back to the man on the bike, a little taller moment by moment, a little longer in his reach. The desert is all around them, the way Den expected it would be. He’s been through this scenery once before, but it was long ago and his eyes were smaller then. Too small to take in the whole cracked egg of his world. It’s like standing all the way inside that cracked egg now, the sound of their breathing echoes as if confined in a hollow space. Yet this is no confinement.

It’s so wide open that it makes you long for confinement. It enamors you of the contours of your body, the straps of your ribs aching to hold in your soul. The egg, the crack in it, the sense of creation interrupted. What was growing has temporarily left its nativity for otherworldly tasks. It may come back. It may not. In the interim the land is moody, waiting.

Den turns around and looks at his father who leans into the bike, leans into a long drag on his cigarette, leans into a thought not ready for words. The man is so familiar. They should be at home by now. They should be sitting at the dinner table. This familiarity is deeper than the desert, longer than the miles they’ve traveled. It confuses Dennis. What is the source of this sadness? It’s time to go home. Den holds the camera steady.

:: 3 ::

Bertie is the soul of the desert. Her body’s Navajo brown inside the dawn of civilization. Her heart, the rumble of wind across dark boulders, across the ocean of dry soil. He holds her now inside his small, growing frame. Keeps her obesity quietly tucked in the folds of his own taut skin. The mystery of Neil begins with Bertie. A muse, a catalyst, a goddess – but not in that romantic way.

A woman who wields power. And silence. Something so ordinary among the population, yet so extra-ordinary by the depth of her pulse.

She is an awareness.

The round belly that is the earth, where Den’s feet are so fragilely planted. She is what breathing feels like, slipping back inside the wound in which the mystery prevails. She is the night, the underside of sight flashing with stars. And she is wordless.

So quiet. You can slip all the way in and hear: your own thoughts. Her grief is enormous and frightening, more-so because she’s unafraid of it. Her patience is consuming and neutral. Her acceptance is a drug, a poppy blooming in the senses of a tender soul.

When he thinks of her he’s not actually thinking of anything specific, just the sensation of her, the part that he recognizes in himself. That knowing which reciprocates their natures. She gave him the camera, the safe eye to see the stillness of the spinning world. She gave him the lens that he alone can control and she gave him permission to lose control of it, completely.

Because inside that womb of continuous hours where they meet, there is only breathing, only expanding.

It’s the job of the soul to stretch out across the body of the desert and touch, without skin or fingers or nerves, the hidden creek that wets our knowledge of who we are. Who we are always.

Who we are when we are alone and a goddess looks into our eyes, looks into our dreams and says, yes. I see you clearly. All is well.

:: 4 ::

The night’s so cold, it’s impossible to sleep. So cold, it’s impossible to dream or intuit anything outside the realm of instinct. They lie close, body to body, and try to pretend it’s warm. Den shivers, bites down.

He doesn’t ask to leave; it’s not an option in his mind. This night is simply something he will have to get through. He can get through a night. It’s hard to explain why he doesn’t protest, why he doesn’t squirm or whine or complain the way most kids would. He wants to survive it. The sensation is that he’s surviving it for him, for his Dad and for himself. For his brother, Todd, and for his mother back home.

Dennis doesn’t feel like a saint, sacrificing his flesh for the pardon of others; his feelings aren’t haloic that way. But there’s a deep sense of carrying them all inside somehow, little crystals that resonate in his being. He carries their survival in his bones, in his fingernails, in his eyelashes. It’s so easy to feel them moving around his heart on a night like this. Daddio, also awake, moves his arm to secure his son’s warmth. Pulls him in, the little heater always burning. Nothing between them and the earth, nothing between them and the sky. They stretch and curl into the ground like slow night creatures, thoughts snaking in sand patterns with no where to go.

:: 5 ::

A boy is a slippery thing. A handful of stars dripping with liquid vaseline. Try to hold one in your hand or squeeze him down into your pocket: he either slips through the grip you’ve made or he burns your fingers off with his lurking sun powers. Todd is like that.

Loud, red, puffed up and inside-out. His growing startles Dennis, how much he has filled out this evolving form in the weeks they’ve been apart. New scars have formed in unusual places and Todd wants Den to inspect them all. “Connect the dots!”

Todd hands him a crayon. “Mom does it like this. . . .” He takes the crayon, burnt sienna with the paper peeled back, aims it at Den’s face to demonstrate.

“Hold still or I can’t do it right.”

“You hold still. I don’t want that stuff on my face.”

“Then do me, do me, Den. It’s fun.”

“You’re weird.”

“Not.”

Dennis takes the crayon, aims for a scar on the kid’s right arm. Runs it up and down to connect the dots of his little brother’s slowly healing chicken pox.

We draw people in our lives with the colors they give us and we also add our own hues, tint them with the lenses we use. Dennis connects dots on Todd’s small arms, connects them on the back of his neck, on his twitchy cheeks, on his legs growing stubbornly from the ground up into the broad universe of potential manhood.

He connects dots, which are scabs and scars, and he knows that this map will change quickly. In a month or two, in a year or ten, this map will reinvent itself, cover his red sienna trails with unimagined stripes. Todd will always be scratching at something, making it bleed like this, fascinated with the scent and texture of his own blood. These scabs will heal and more will form. Dennis will be there to connect.

The gesture, so innocuous, verging on sweet, is the net that will catch this little giant of a soul and keep it from slipping through into the abyss waiting on the other side of sanity.

Todd squirms, sings, screeches, laughs. A star forms over and over, trying to find a shape to contain its burning core. Forms again and again, cannot outline itself, cannot stop trying.

Maybe if that star could create a crust that could slow things down for even the briefest pause, maybe then someone would be able to stare into it long enough to wish upon it. Oh, sad burning star twisting in childhood dreams. Dennis wishes upon it, unafraid of its heat, willing to connect its sparks.

He wishes with his silence: let it be quiet and still, just tonight.

Good night.

:: 6 ::

In the dark, on his side of the room, Dennis sits with a piece of paper and a pencil. He has written one word at the top of the page, a short word with heavy letters. The word is a name, just a name. But no, it’s bigger than a name. He won’t limit it with punctuation, no comma or colon or dash feels welcome. Just the name: Bertie. Not even “dear” or some lame preamble. Bertie.

He’s home now, in the bedroom that should be familiar and cozy with Todd sleeping nearby and the old street lamps recognizing the shape of his shadow. His mother’s aroma lingers, the imperfect vacuum lines in the carpet under his feet, clothes with his name sewn in as evidence he belongs. When he thinks of Bertie, the longing is acidic, wearing away his blanket of rest and homecoming.

All night awake, swimming in that acid. Homesick for her presence, the light that comes through her and casts his shadow right. Stuck in the quick ticking of this midnight, he doesn’t have the tools to clarify what he feels, he just feels it. Homesick is the word he can’t identify.

He wants to write a letter, but doesn’t know what to say. Holds the pencil tight, then loosely, spins it, taps it against his teeth, draws a circle on the page. Erases it slowly.

He’s been too long away, has dreamed too long in that other dwelling with which this one could never compete. The dwelling of his emergence, his tender age, the split roads of growth in all directions, the desert studded with possible men. The ones who don’t come back and the ones who can’t leave.

Bertie
Are you ok? I still have the camera you gave me and I took a lot of pictures every day and some of them are ok but I really like the ones when you were outside and I took them that day. Do you remember – me _ Dad says we won’t go back there but I don’t know if he means never or maybe just a long time from now. Maybe we can come back some time. We were in the desert after we left – in Death valley have you been there? It is a very strange place and I didn’t sleep very much when we were there but Dad slept and I felt like snakes were going to crawl over us and I didn’t care. Does that sound weird? I have to go to school tomorrow and Mom is scared because they keep saying I have to go somewhere else because we were gone so long. Did you know it would take this long to get home? Why don’t you and Neil come visit us? I don’t know – I hope you are ok and not missing too much – Tom. He is not hurting. I know that – but I don’t know.

It’s really late now my brother is sleeping and he makes a lot of noise when he sleeps sometimes because he’s always dreaming about loud things and he likes to make noise all the time. His hair is red he had chickenpox while we were at your house. Mom said he missed me. I love him. I miss you. Good night.

The words are hard to see in the dark. He can’t really remember what he wrote, even this soon after putting the pencil down. Marks on paper slant from corner to corner, not accurate or straight the way it felt when he was writing. They are nebulous, running together. The heart is a restless penman.

Dennis feels like crying, but doesn’t. He stares at his bed and tries to remember how to move.

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Related reading: the character of Dennis first appeared as an adult, professional photographer in TORPOR: Though the Heart is Warm. Set in the 1990s, the novel explores themes of identity, self-deception, father-son confusions and spells we inadvertently allow family to imprint on us — spells we must learn to break.

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Peter – or is it Pedro? – is about to wake up from prolonged emotional hibernation to discover what really makes him tick.

Follow him on his journey from L.A. to Phoenix to the tropical, mosquito-brined coast of Mexico – an oh-so-human departure from numb suffering into the fearless terrain of wild awakening.

the resulting joy

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You Matter

What if we could break the paradigm of war, strife and human suffering within our lifetime? What if love and saner choices really could prevail?

What if you had the power to set that degree of sweeping change in motion?

The POWER picks up where the first book in The Amie Series left off. Like The LOOK, the sequel embraces life’s big questions with expansive scope and focused intimacy. This time the stakes are higher, threats are dire and Amie’s power is proving to be both a curse and a gift.

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Book 1: The LOOK of Amie Martine | 306 Pages | ISBN 1523664339

Book 2: The POWER of Amie Martine | 438 pages | ISBN 1986913783

trust the audience, honey

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Stephen King says the scariest time is just before you start. Baloney! No disrespect to the master — he knows a thing or two or plenty about writing that I’ve surely yet to learn — but the scariest moment isn’t at the beginning when your terror’s mitigated by hope and gumption and the innocent desire to discover what will happen if you really see this thing through. No. The scariest moment is five minutes after you finish. That’s when thinking about and preparing for the striptease becomes the moment you rip the curtain down and face the stage. And it’s your book going out there, not you.

Your task is to push it out onto the stage and say: go ahead — trust the audience, honey. Trust them to receive you while I collapse in a heap of exhaustion and pray for your success. Trust them not to throw rotten fruit at you or look away before you get to the good part. Trust them to love you better than I have — because you don’t belong to me anymore; you belong to them.

Writing is about as humbling as it gets — it’s 100% service. Service to the idea that hired you and the characters who confided in you and the audience that may or may not grant safe passage for the unveiling of a lifetime.

“A person who publishes a book willfully appears before the populace with his pants down.” ― Edna St. Vincent Millay

“Publishing a book is like stuffing a note into a bottle and hurling it into the sea… You never know who your readers might be.” ― Margaret Atwood

“Writing is a socially acceptable form of getting naked in public.” —Paulo Coelho

 

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For years no one else but me had access to what’s between the covers. 🔮 Now it’s time to shout (and cower) (and hope) and sigh, so glad you can pick it up and pass it on.

The LOOK of Amie Martine

306 Pages | ISBN 1523664339 | Amazon

The POWER of Amie Martine

438 pages | ISBN 1986913783 | Amazon

write our history free

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What if we could break the paradigm of war, strife and human suffering within our lifetime? What if love and saner choices really could prevail?

What if you had the power to set that degree of sweeping change in motion?

The POWER of Amie Martine

Novel | ISBN 1986913783 | 438 pages | Sequel to The LOOK

 

He knew when it happened, it would be strange and woefully wonderful.

 

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fear grips on – i’m typing anyway

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Now that the sequel is finished and available to the world, I’m finally catching a breath. I remember how this felt two years ago and am so glad to have pushed through!
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The POWER of Amie Martine
ISBN 1986913783 | 438 pages

Laurie Perez

Writing book two, it turns out, is more terrifying than writing the first in the series. It’s more terrifying as the downloads of scenes and dialogues and meaningful discoveries line up to be delivered to the page – each bigger than the last (will I be able to type that fast?). It’s more terrifying as the sense of obligation to these characters roots deeper, pushing down into the unseen well. It’s more terrifying – but also more compelling. More than the first, writing the second book is something I can’t not do.

After The LOOK, The POWER of Amie Martine is a non-negotiable promise to be kept. Each new page turn effects (on a personal scale) the next rotation of the earth – a pulse essential to my heart – respect for a binding agreement to have more fun, be more true, excavate something undeniably new.

The sun can only be seen by the light of the sun. ~image with a poem by Attar, translated by Coleman Barks

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take the ride

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New characters to discover : known characters to further uncover : things done wrong for the right reasons {maybe?} : so much happens in eleven chapters. . . Years waking, dreaming, not-sleeping to bring it out so you can enter and take the ride.

The POWER of Amie Martine

ISBN 1986913783 | 438 pages

CAST OF CHARACTERS 

Amie Martine — Deceiver, Anti-healer, Wielder of The LOOK & Powers Emergent

D Dodds Berry — Poet, Lover, Bringer of Gems

Connor Berry — Agent of Numbness and Death, Bringer of Whiskey

Faas Offerman — Killer, Avatar of Danger, sometimes called Attar by mistake

Orpheus — Agent of Chaos and Cacophony

Sunny — Producer, Movie Star, Pilot, Pusher of Limits

Nigel — Bajan Guesthouse Owner, Witness to the Inexplicable

Oriana, Maxine and Riordan — The Unborn

Temujin — Purveyor of Sweeping Change, Fear and Ferocity, aka Genghis Khan

Carter — Neighbor, Reveler, Witness to the Impossible

Kate — Midwife, Kenyan Immigrant, Agent of The Mystery and Birth

The Actor — Shapeshifter, Bringer of Wine, Wielder of Compassion

Eurydice — Timeless Come-hither Liberator, Gatekeeper

Ahm — UN Operative, Underground Networker, Zaatari POC

Sammy — Peacekeeper, Socotran Transplant, Bringer of Coffee

Attar of Nishapur — Great Grandad of Sufi Poets, Purveyor of Awakening & Riddles of Consciousness

The Leader — Keeper of Wounds, Agent of Widespread Malevolence and Brutal Death

 

LOCATIONS

Phoenix

Aguadilla

St. Vincent and the Grenadines

Barbados

Washington D.C.

Amman

Zaatari

Socotra

Mari

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“He knew when it happened, it would be strange and woefully wonderful.”

 

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harrowing and resplendent

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Simple. Elegant. Powerful. Realistic.
Lighthearted, silly and transformative.
Much too curious to be all-knowing;
Too free to linger in the clueless dark.

I’ll meet you here. The moment you feel ready.

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The sequel is nearly complete. I so passionately wanted to release it in the autumn of 2017 — but, as millions around the globe know all too well, last year was a greedy bastard bearing down on focus, wearing thin our collective stamina for anything that wasn’t urgent and immediate.

On new year’s eve, my family lit sparklers and noted how brief and brightly they wrote light into the air of a dusty trail beside a shallow canal. I felt the 2017 spell crumble and dissolve. The next day — the quintessential first day — the material coming through became unstoppable. And so the sequel is rapidly realizing a completed book as fast as I can type. I’m harvesting surprises daily; entering scenes rich in anguish, loss and marvel; encapsulating territories harrowing and resplendent.

The day’s coming soon when I can hand Amie’s experiences in The POWER over to you. Not in autumn when leaves fall and trees go dormant, but in spring when micro-bursts of anger and surges of resilience result in blooms and fruit ripe for picking.

Stay close. Be ready.

My life more than once
has changed in an instant
that took years to form.
—Amie Martine

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the self-satisfying craving

Whatever fuel I need
is inside the work itself.

Laurie Perez

Nearly 7am and I feel sleepy, blurry and clear — I surrender to the beauty of what I have summoned — I surrender to receive more fully, more immediately — more deliciously — more spontaneously — more surprisingly — more expectantly, too! I am in service to the passion compelling me to complete this book — trusting in the muse and my ability to bring it forth — trusting in the amazing structure that has so far set itself up for me to write within.

—Excerpt from a journal entry typed at the speed of light on 01.16.14 when my work on The LOOK was just beginning and I craved the stamina to see it through — realizing as I typed: whatever fuel I needed was inside the work itself.

I am a nobody, just a squatter sitting in the dust
Of the public street; and yet these sacred beings from
The…

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